It's Going to be Okay

I was so excited for him. He worked so hard for this and the time came for him to fly. He will soar!

I knew it would be difficult to leave my only son 539 miles away. I knew I would struggle not seeing him everyday.

But I never imagined the punch in the gut when I saw his dark, empty room.

I cried a bit on the road to Brooke's house. I broke down a little at Brooke's house. I was despondent on the road back home but thought I was doing pretty good!

Then I walked into the house, toward the bathroom, and completely lost it. The sadness overwhelmed me all at once. It was as if the dam of my emotions broke through and there was no stopping the flood of tears that came.

After a while, I emerged from the bathroom feeling lost as I wandered through the place that my Noah called home for the last 13 1/2 years. How am I going to get through this?

The next day was no better. I woke with a heavy heart, worried about my only son sounding sad on the phone the day before.

I had to take the Lily to volleyball practice and get groceries because of course, there was no food in the house. I really need to work on that. You know, I make sure the house is nice and clean so that when we come back from somewhere, I'm not freaking out over a messy house. But somehow it eludes me to make sure there's some dang milk in the house! Ugh!!

Anyway, I made my way across the parking lot in a mind fog into Giant when suddenly I hear my name being called. It was the help I needed at the very moment.

Can I just say how GOOD God is?!!

My friend Kristen, who has a son of her own at the same school, ends up in the same parking lot of the same Giant food store I was at! What a breath of fresh air! It was as if He sent an angel of the Lord to encourage me! In fact, it was exactly that.

I was comforted by the fact that God saw me and met me where I was and gave me precisely what I needed. I could feel the heaviness begin to lift.

I woke up this morning feeling lighter and better with praises on my lips for my God, who is loving and all knowing, and who desires for us to know Him deeply and depend on him completely.

Thank you Jesus for being....everything.

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