Trying To Look Like Jesus

Lilianna Age 5 Those adorable little fingers. That cute, mischievous smile.  Her laugh!  She came into this world unexpectedly but she would be my biggest joy (and pain).  The birth was the best ever and NO meds.  But the birth would not be an indicator of her personality. Oh, how needy and clingy she would be to her momma.  Always just wanted mamma. Nursery school was the hardest. Leaving her behind crying for momma.  I soon learned it was all an act for me, she was fine after a few minutes and had her favorite.....baby dolls!  We went to work/school together.  We've spent so much time together since then and now more time than ever.  I hate to think of when it comes time for her to leave the nest.  Will she be ready? Today For now I have her home with me, every day.  We work together, school together, play together, pray together.  This child that came unexpectedly into my home and heart is TEN today! ...

So here it is 11:52 in the morning and we are finished school.  Now that's more like it!  It's been a challenging several weeks here at the Judge house but things are finally flowing well and mama's not pulling out her hair anymore.  Thank goodness because if it kept up I would literally be bald by December.....not a good look for me.  Noah loves science especially the experiments.  He had two short ones today.  He likes to see how the world around him responds.  It's such a joy to see him love learning something.  Brooke still hates algebra 2 but we started a new lesson that seems simpler to understand.  Lily's been enjoying art and so am I. It's a fun break during the week or a good ending to the week......whenever I can get it in.  I love homeschooling again!!!!

Me, that's who!  I dug up my high school transcript to see how I did in Algebra and Algebra 2.  Let's just say I barely graduated because of Algebra 2.  Once again it rears its ugly head for me to (not) conquer.  Oh yeah!! I'm older and wiser now.   I can do this !  No I can't.  The only difference is that I have the teacher book with the answers.  Boy, I wish I had that back then :)   Brooke is doing much better than I was though.  I think it helps having the DVD instructor and a mom who is sympathetic towards her frustrations.  And maybe that mom helps her ALOT with the answers, maybe ;D.

Wow, these last two weeks have flown by!  Our days are full of learning, field trips, doctor/dentist/vet visits, and Noah's room is being painted and redecorated.  I'm exhausted and overwhelmed to the point that last Friday I couldn't take it anymore and had a full on break down that my poor husband had to talk me down from.   "You're doing too much, take a break", he says.   What!!  And fall behind on  EVERYTHING!!!  Yeah, it was pretty bad.  A grown woman, daughter of the King, having a melt down.  Why?   I was once again.....doing it in my own strength.  Phillippians 4:13 says, "I can do all things through Christ  which strengtheneth me".  I was once again reminded of that wonderful truth on Sunday at church through the preaching of God's holy word.  Thank the Lord for a bible preaching church and a pastor who is filled with the Spirit.  I needed that message of course, b...

Although Thursday's court hearing went very well, I have to wait about 30 days to find out the judge's decision, even though he pretty much makes it that day.  If they know, why wait to tell you?!  Another opportunity to practice patience, yay :(  It was one of the scariest things I had to do ever  and I was totally sick to my stomach.  I didn't know what to expect and I had to speak in front of the judge.  I thought my lawyer was going to do all the talking, but instead he had to ask me questions in front of the judge!  But the Lord gave me clarity of thought and I answered the questions about what happened to my foot and why I can't do the work I used to do.  Afterwards my lawyer was really  happy with how well it went which is good news for me I guess.  And so we wait.......