Trying To Look Like Jesus

I can't believe it's been seventeen years since she came into my life.  It's gone by so quickly.  After her we were content with never having another one.  She was the happy, bubbly, loud one! She still is. Easiest baby out of all of them.  Content to play with whatever she could find.  I couldn't imagine life without her, EVER!  She is my strength when I can't go on sometimes.  She makes me laugh after an awful day and is my biggest cheerleader.  She's my first baby.  Happy birthday!! I love you so much.

It's been a hard pill to swallow, but when God says no we have to remember He sees things we cannot.  Although it does not make sense to me now or maybe never, I know that I can trust that God has my best interest at heart.  Job 2:10 says,".... What? Shall we receive good at the hand of God, and shall we not receive evil? In all this did not Job sin with his lips." We are quick to accepts God's yes but why do we not accept His no just as quickly.  We are so quick to dismiss it as, well , I don't know exactly, but when he says no we throw a tantrum.  I know I did! Then I allow God's word and grace to wash over me and calm me down and bring me back to earth and remind myself that this is not my home. I am but a pilgrim passing through and touching lives with the Love of Christ as I go, hopefully bringing others with me to heaven, my real home. It would have been nice to have some extra money to save, fix the house, get the kids braces, etc.....but H...

God seems to find the oddest time of the day to speak to me.  Like the other day in the car, I was driving from church for the 100th time this week and all of a sudden, He speaks to me.  I know it's Him because this warm feeling overcomes me.  I know, I'm weird, but it's true.   Anyway, I have been a little hard on Lily during school.  It just seems like she should get it, you know!  Sometimes I can't tell if she's just playing me or what. But then God reminded me of the times I just don't get it.  In the car, I was thinking about my husband trying to patiently explain something to me that seems so obvious to him and I'm giving him that dumb look. You know the one, like he has three heads or something.  After he gives a one hour explanation, I finally get it, but by then he's frustrated and I feel badly. "Lily feels the same way, badly", I hear Him say.  It's not that she's testing me (all the time:) or is trying to get under my ...