How did I get here? I feel like Bugs Bunny when he would end up somewhere different then he was headed and he'd say, " I must have made a wrong turn at Albuquerque".
I made a wrong turn somewhere because I felt like I shouldn't be where I ended up. With a wayward daughter, engaged to a lost man with one foot out the door! Oh yes, she also decided she's moving out to live with him and his family, far, far away. Was I such a terrible mother that my daughter wanted to move hundreds of miles away from her family? What did I do? Help me Lord!
And He did. Once again he gave us the grace to face this evolving challenge. He showed us the way to go, one step at a time.
In just a few short months I would have to say good-bye to my first born. She made up her mind. Believe me, we tried to talk them out of it, but when young people have their mind made up there is no stopping them. It's them against the world. Guess how I know that? Because I was once 18 and in love and moving in with the love of my life. I would love to say we planned it that way but it is by God's grace that we are still married today. That's another story.
February 15th is the day she flew out of the nest. She literally took a piece of my heart with her. Our family has never been the same. Oh we see each other occasionally and talk or text everyday which I am so thankful for, but it's not the same.
Needless to say our homeschooling had to get a little creative so that she could finish and graduate (something I...I mean she had been working so hard for). Truly it was a great school year all in all. The other two kids had a stellar year academically, but we were all a little dry spiritually.
So what did God teach me last school year? He taught me that I'm a lot stronger than I give myself credit for. I don't cry every night like I used to. He taught me that I have two other kids who need me now more than ever! Satan's attacks are very real and we must be vigilant to guard and nurture their hearts. My husband really is my best friend. I saw a strength in him I hadn't seen in a long time. And God is in control. He knew what was going to happen and prepared me for it. Having faith in an awesome God is a hard lesson to learn but a very necessary one.
I'm looking forward to a great school year! Well, I was last year too, but this year my prayer is that we as a family will grow stronger in our relationship with Jesus and each other and hopefully won't be caught off guard because we are carefully guarding our hearts.
Proverbs 4:23 Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life.
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